kaffy_r | Dept. of Tiny Steps

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Dept. of Tiny Steps

I Can Make Progress, Sometimes.

I've been depressed since November, as I've mentioned more than once. How depressed? I found myself unable to open the Christmas and holiday cards Bob and I received. At first, it was because we weren't sending out cards and I felt as if I couldn't open and enjoy cards when I hadn't sent cards for others to enjoy. Days passed, then weeks, where the pile of unopened cards became something I couldn't bear to look at.

Yeah, depression, making weird inaction a daily thing.

But today I opened them all. And to everyone on my f'list who was lovely enough to send me, Bob, or the both of us, cards, thank you! I'm sorry I wasn't able to send you cards, but I hope to change that in the next holiday season.

I'm choosing to believe that opening the cards was a step in the right mental direction.

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Yeah, the tiny things which accumulate negative vibes turn into mountains, and it All Becomes Too Hard. Know it well. (hugs)

Thanks for the hugs. I'm sorry you've had to deal with the All Becomes Too Hard syndrome, even though it's comforting to know that others know what I'm talking about.

I bet you're right, and wish you more such good small steps.

I could use some of those myself.

P.

I wish you many more of your own; while it's sad that so many people I know understand my situation because they've experienced something akin to it, I'm also selfishly glad that I'm not alone. Happy Monday to you, and I hope you have a very good week!