Dept. of Chagrin

[kaffy_r]

 A fandom_stocking  Apology

Folks, for the first time since 2011, when  I fell in love with fandom_stocking  - the only "-athon" I write for, and the one that has given me such joy - I am most probably not going to be able to fill anyone's stocking. 

When I signed up myself, I was full of plans; I'd just finished the last two promised 2015 stocking stuffers, and I'd thought that had primed my creative pump. And, as I always do each season, I thought perhaps this was the year that I could focus on drabbles, or at least shorter stories. Plus, I had my vacation coming up, and I'd be able to write something every day ....

Yeah. Didn't happen. I can't even figure out definitively why, although last night I told BB it might be that finishing up those 2015 stories had, instead of priming the pump, run the well dry. God knows, this has been a terrible writing year for me; it's the first time since 2007 that I haven't been able to get at least one chapter of Hearts & Moons completed. 

The events of November also have affected me, perhaps more deeply than even I thought. 

Yesterday, the day before my vacation ended, I suddenly wrote two paragraphs of something, and I thought, "Aha! Adrenaline junkie time! You can at least get two stories done before my vacation, and perhaps a third one before the stockings go live ....

And then this morning, I burned my left index finger, ironing a shirt. It's bandaged up now, and doesn't hurt too much, but the bandage makes typing incredibly frustrating. I'm down from 80-plus words a minute to, I don't know, 30-40, what with having to fix up mistakes. GAAAAAAaarrrhh!

tl;dr - after burbling about fandom_stocking , and looking forward to it, I don't think I can take part. I don't say it can't happen. Anything can happen, of course, and one never shuts the door, but - and there's an end to the sentence. 

Perhaps next year more of us can hang stockings, and I can fill all of them. 

*sighs, heads off to the grocery store*

Comments

[robling-t.livejournal.com]

Self-care is the first duty, god knows that's all I've been managing to try to stay on top of all year either, especially lately...

[kaffy_r]

One of the problems is that for me, self-care includes writing fic. Yeah, I know; kind of silly (but it's not pathetic, which I might have said a few years ago.) I love writing fic.

How are you? How are your kittehz, and your parental unit?

[robling-t.livejournal.com]

Well, the kittehz have (mostly) stopped major hostilities, which is occasionally more than can be said of me and Mum, but at the moment nobody's physically on fire, at least, which is more than could be said for bits of 2016. If only my Muse weren't SO inclined to knit instead of writing as a response to stress...

[kaffy_r]

but at the moment nobody's physically on fire, at least, which is more than could be said for bits of 2016.

Lack of burning humans is to be counted as a positive these days.

And hey, if your Muse is knitting, that's still creative, right?