Dept. of What Is This I Don't Even

[kaffy_r]

It Would Be Boring If It Wasn't Worse Than That

I'd sort of fallen off the map, journal-wise, and finally congratulated myself today about getting back into action by wishing folks happy birthdays, belated and otherwise. Then I'd planned to talk about all sorts of things; my continuing crazed work experience, thoughts of Captain America: The Winter Soldier, maybe one or two other fannish things, and updates on my brother, who came home Saturday. He still sounded weak, but he was on the mend. And I wanted to talk about things that were going well, or at least things I could grind my teeth about, but in a lively and maybe humorous way. I was going to upload the picture of my first 2014 Spring Robin. It was really plump, its breast was red, and it was sturdy and cheeky, and the picture made me smile, and I thought it might make you smile, too.

Mac called me today; he'd collapsed while talking on the phone and woke up to find paramedics and police in the house. I'm really glad that he was on the phone when it happened, although he says he doesn't even remember making the phone call. His red blood cell count is dropping, and they can't figure out why, and they're trying to reverse it, and figure out what's going on. So he's back in hospital.

I can't ... my mother went in to hospital. She went through a successful operation and came home. And she went back in, and she never came out. And I know this is a vastly different situation, but it all started happening with Mum just about this same time last year.

I have stories to write tomorrow, and things I have to deal with for the condo association, and some union stuff, I think. In the meantime, I've finally watched the latest Agent of SHIELD, and taken enough pseudo-kinda-trankey stuff to get me to sleep fast tonight.

Comments

[owlboy]

That can be a reaction to major surgery [postoperative anemia]. It's not uncommon and he should be ok. <3

[kaffy_r]

Thank you; I hadn't consciously known of postop anemia, but that makes sense. This is a good thing to know. ♥

[masakochan]

That makes it sound like an inevitable speed-bump on the road to full recovery (which I hope he's completely heading towards).

[kaffy_r]

That's definitely what I'm hoping for. Just talked to him. He sounds ... resigned, but not as weak as he has been on occasions since the surgery.

[shanghaied]

Wot owlboy said. And as always, hold tight to all you know of your beloved bro. Picture him, remember him, hold hard to your knowing of his life and hope he'll have a goodly helping of future for you to look back on and remember someday...

[kaffy_r]

These are all good things to remember; I haven't had near enough time with him, though, so the hope and the sending out wishes to the universe for a good turn of events is sitting strongest in my head and heart right now. Mostly, I just want to be there for him now.

[shanghaied]

We need to find you a teleporter STAT! :-S

[kaffy_r]

:)

[kerravonsen]

*hugs*

[kaffy_r]

Thank you so much. Hugs are so very needed.

[st_aurafina]

What people have said - lots of hinkey junk goes on after major surgery, and I'd be surprised if he didn't have some ups and downs.

But that kind of common sense doesn't mean a thing when you've lost loved ones and other loved ones are going through trauma - I know my switches were all set to instant panic for a long time after lilacsigil was sick. You take care of you - enjoy your trankey sleep. I'm sending good thoughts for your brother, and that he'll be home again soon.

[kaffy_r]

But that kind of common sense doesn't mean a thing when you've lost loved ones and other loved ones are going through trauma

This. The dissonance between head and heart is so foolish, and yet so inevitable.

Thank you for telling me this, and for the good thoughts.

[bibliofile]

Curse your heart and its inevitable betrayal panic attack? I'm glad it sounds like something that's not too horrible and that he sounds better.

[ladymercury-10.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear that he's back in the hospital. I hope the doctors get everything sorted, and quickly.

It's so hard not to see patterns in things, even if the situations are indeed very different. Best wishes for his recovery, and hugs to you.

[gerisullivan.livejournal.com]

Yes, what ladymercury_10 said. All of it.

My love and prayers are winging their way through the electrons to both Halifax and Chicago.

[kaffy_r]

Thank you, my dear. I'm told now by one of my online friends that postoperative anemia is not an uncommon thing, and I am holding on to that very logical piece of information rather tightly right now.

[kaffy_r]

It's so hard not to see patterns in things, even if the situations are indeed very different.

That's the problem. We humans are pattern-seeking creatures, which is not always to our advantage. The dissonance between my head and heart is frustrating. Thanks for your good wishes.

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey!! I hope they get it all taken care of and he gets back on his feet record fast!

I can't say I blame you for being upset. The time of year and the similarities would have had me raising the roof and crying all over everything. All I can tell you is that it may seem similar, it may seem like deja vu all over again, but it isn't, lovie. There is likely something simple and stupid for an explanation.

I'm hoping you get the 'it's all okay' call here soon, love...

*hugs you hard*

[kaffy_r]

There is likely something simple and stupid for an explanation.

You're right, I know, and people have actually told me that postoperative anemia is A Thing, so I'm going to pray that that is what he has, and that, more importantly, it's easily handled.

Thank you for all your love and care, my dear.

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Always, honey...you call me if you need me, okay?

*hugs you hard*

[sallymn.livejournal.com]

Oh, I am so sorry - it's hard not to worry yourself sick, isn't it?

I hope you hear good news, and soon.

[kaffy_r]

I'm grateful for your wishes and hopes; thank you. And you're so right, it's very hard not to worry.

[thisbluespirit]

*hugs* I hope they find out what it is for him & you have some good news soon! ♥

[kaffy_r]

Thanks. I am reminding myself that he has a very good team - he's right back in the cardiac care unit, so I'm not going to have to worry about shoddy care. It's just so hard being this far away from him.

[eve11]

sending love and thoughts. I hope your brother stabilizes quickly and starts feeling better.

[kaffy_r]

Thank you - I appreciate the people out there in the world that I can connect with during times like this. It makes the day a little less difficult.

[maruad.livejournal.com]

You and your brother are in my thoughts. Best wishes.

[kaffy_r]

Thank you so much.

[eaweek.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your brother's relapse. What a horrible, stressful thing to be going through.

[kaffy_r]

Thanks for your thoughts. I hope to hear from him later today, especially if he's found out what the problem is, and how they can stabilize him.

[time-converges.livejournal.com]

Oh, I hope they can figure out what's going on and stabilize him - and get him back home! *hugs* to you and to your family.

Agents of Shield!!! I am ashamed to say I had given up on the show, but my sister convinced me to watch last week's and this week's, and I'm glad she did.

[kaffy_r]

Thanks - I spoke to him earlier today, and ... yeah, we're both hoping for the best.

but my sister convinced me to watch last week's and this week's, and I'm glad she did.

Oh, I'm so glad you checked back in! It's one of the very few pieces of destination television for me. (I'm a bit ashamed to say that I tried Elementary's first episode and just walked away when I realized that the "mystery" was completely pants. I know that the mystery is not the main thing, but ... yeah, I walked away. I should check it out?)

[time-converges.livejournal.com]

Ooh yes, definitely check Elementary - I'm the first to admit that the murders/mysteries are usually "completely pants" as you so eloquently put it (LOL), but the character work they're doing is amazing. It still has it's uneven places and flaws, but that's what fic is for! :)

I am glad I checked back in on SHIELD, too!

[mack-the-spoon.livejournal.com]

So sorry about the renewed stress of your brother's situation. I will continue to keep him and your family in my prayers.



With regards to Cap 2 and the latest SHIELD episode - my mind is totally blown and I can't wait to see where the show is going.

[kaffy_r]

You are so sweet - thanks for your continuing support.

And I'm definitely waiting impatiently for next week's SHIELD; because I can't believe what happened in the last few minutes - bit of an unhappy surprise that I hope will turn out alright, although I can't see how it will.

[namarie24.livejournal.com]

Oh, how scary! I'm glad he was on the phone when it happened, too, if it had to happen. Definitely still praying.

[kaffy_r]

It is scary, and the fact that he was connected to the outside world when he collapsed is one of the only good things about it. Thanks for your support, my dear.